This is how I feel about this

Is this a dream? Where am I? No one is around me. I can't think strait. As I laid there on the ground, I tried to peace together what happened in the last few minutes. I know I was awake, but why can't I remember?
Someone must've seen me. I don't know who. More people are starting to show up. I rattled off a bunch of numbers that didn't make any since. All I know is that my arm hurts really bad, and that I feel alone. Wait, now they are lifting me. At first I could feel everything, now I feel nothing but the numbness. I keep begging them  to stop, but they tell me that I need help now, and they have to keep going. My eyes drift asleep, and the helicopter takes off.
Three days later I wake up. I don't know where I am. I am in a bed and hooked up to so many machines. My mom tells me that I have been in a really bad car accident. I am almost for certain this is a dream. I try to get up, but I can't even lift my head. Mom tells me to relax, and that I am okay, but I know this has to be a dream.
The family and some friends came in to see me. If this is a dream, how come I haven't woken up yet? I still can't seem to piece together what happened. I am told that a lady by the name of DeeDee Barefoot found me on her way to school. That is where I was headed. She said she never went that way to work, but something made her go another way.
She wasn't going to stop when she seen my car, but when she saw me lying on the ground she stayed with me until 911 got there. I wasn't alone for long, it felt like forever. For her I am grateful. Flight for Life came faster than I thought. I started to remember a little bit of what happened. I know I left my house at 7:15 that morning. I was doing 40 mph down the road. I got hot, so I pulled over and took my seat belt and my coat off. I thought I was going to be late, so I started back on the road without my seat belt on. I came over a hill and lost control in some loose dirt. I regained control of the car, but soon lost it again. This time it was too late.
My car turned counterclockwise and launched itself off a drainage pipe in the ground. Instead of hitting the brake, I got scared and hit the gas instead. My car started to roll at 60 mph down the side of the biggest hill on that road. On the last roll, my body was ejected out of the passenger side window. This is what happened to me on the day of my wreck. I can assure you, it wasn't like people say. It wasn't my eyes flashing before my eyes, I didn't see a light at the end of any tunnel. It was a living hell. I can remember every detail of that day. It doesn't just pass you by. You start to have bad dreams, and then you start reliving it. The slightest move can make you feel like I am right back in the driver's seat.
When you sit and stare into space you start to see it replay itself over and over right before you, and closing your eyes just makes it worse. They say I should write about it, so I did. Even though it has been 3 months, it feels like only yesterday that I almost lost my life. It is not something that I will ever forget. Some say that it will eventually pass, I can absolutely assure them, that it will not just pass me by. I may be alive, but I am paralyzed from the waist down. It is a wait and see sort of thing I have been told. If I will ever walk again, I don't know.  No one that I know has ever had to tell 300 kids, or 25 of their closest friends to wear their seat belt. I had to. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. I shouldn't have to tell my friends to wear their seat belts, but I did it. Things are hard and yes they do suck. I can't stand doing this every day of my life. Everyone says that I make it look easy, or I am doing good, but what they don't see is all the hard painful, physical things I go through everyday.
And they never will. I don't care how many times somebody tells me that they understand, they don't, and they cannot physically or possibly understand unless they have gone through every little detail that I have had to endure. I know it sounds nice, but there is no way.